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Sunday, November 27, 2016

Selena Gomez Speech

Selena entered my life in the middle of my messy life. I think she was too. If she mentioned as an absolutely broken girl, I am noticed as an absolutely broken lady. You know that we have same situation in different triggers.

I met her in the internet, when I asked google who was the most beautiful woman in the world. Google said that she is the queen! Then, I looked her over the internet, and followed her in instagram, twitter, youtube, and official website. I spent a lot of time to see her stages, speeches, and positive activities. Sometimes, her negative, too. 😅

Actually, I don't really care about her roman with Bieber, because I think it is easy to find one, two, three, or some men for beautiful woman like her. 😄 But, the heart wants what it wants. Her song tell us it is hard to forget our previously precious lover. They grew together. It took a long time for her to move on. The pain was so deep and drama was so real. Maybe, she was so honest with all of us about her feelings.

Until..

A week later, she announced that she cancelled all of her rest world's revival tour to deal with lupus related depression and maybe some non disclosure problems. It is not drama anymore! It is about life like other people. But, sometimes, we don't realize that she is only human. We don't hear her feelings carefully and we think that her life is so easy for everything she had. We forget that famous has the disease, too.

Then...

She was absent from the spotlight for long time. But, in October 9th, she resurfaced in Tennessee and took selfie with fans. I was so happy when knew the fact. It was around my birthday and it was like a gift for me. She look happier and healthier at that day. In my mind, I just see her like a kid. I am sorry, Selena! But, I am so respect you. 😅

I don't know why I am so connected to her. At that time, I just knew her for a month, and maybe 5 months until now. But, my feelings are so related with her. Then, I put me as one of selenators in all my social media platform like teenager to support her! LOL. My friend was so confused with my bizzare behavior. Previously, I never care about any celebrities! I just explained to my friend that I was in pain, like her, but she was so honest with her feelings. I don't! My pain grows so big and I should stop it right now. I must honest with all of my feelings and give the best thing of me to grow and forgive everything.

Around a month later...

Negative publication about Selena came from rehab facility when papparazi caught she was smoking at the smoking area. For, this issue, I want support Selena as physician. Please, quit smoking my Mija! It is not good for your health. I want you to stay healthy. If I have enough money, I will build a website for helping people quit smoking [in Bahasa]. It will be dedicated to you. Look, how selenator is so inspired with you, Mija! I hope this message touch down to your smartphone and you might hear my purpose. Please, Mija. But, forgive me if I am wrong..😄

3 months she disappeared, and she came back at AMA 2016 as Favorite Female Artist - Pop/Rock. She deserved it. I voted her every time I could! I supported her a lot in order she knew that a whole of the world support her. She delivered very emotional speech. I was very happy, she came. I hope she was happy too.

And...

I was waiting her instagram come back, then she took photo 2 days ago reflecting her respect to fans. She is a heartwarming idol I know. She loves her family. I missed the moment she took photo of her nana and papa. It is so adorable. I am also happy when she took photo her little sister Gracie and goodson Ayden. Knowing that her best friend is her cousin was amazing. She is naturally family woman.

I think she wrapped it all and deal with problems. It is better that silent. Because, silence is like a cancer grows. Post everything you want to post, Selena! Do everything you want to do every time! Say anything you want to say. Let the lovers remain the lover. We do not need the hate in any forms!

Finally, I insert her speech here in order to remember the momen when I want to revive like her!



This girl will fulfill a half of my heart, and I will support her for everything she does for better life. I love you, Selena! All the best. Happy weekend, guys.*Lily Kasim*

PS.
I will so busy to learn English for better life, and I will post my story in English sometimes to improve my TOEFL and or IELTS score

Sunday, November 20, 2016

Do The Plan

Target: trip to aussie

Something should be prepared:
1. TOEFL
2. IELTS
3. GRE (maybe)

Time: max end of 2017

Funding: award or grant or website

Step: 
Pray and extra works
Finding sponsorship or make the project more pronounce

May Allah bless me

Saturday, October 15, 2016

Terima Kasih Tuhan

Ketika itu, saya seorang muda yang sangat miskin. Ayah saya mengantarkan saya ke Jogja dengan bekal uang pas-pasan. Sedari kecil jarang sekali memiliki jajan, dan tidak punya televisi, sehingga menjadi orang yang tidak pandai berbusana dan mengelola uang. Saya lebih mirip anak lelaki, dibandingkan anak perempuan. Ayah, entah mengapa begitu berani melepaskan saya di tanah Jawa. Kami, sama-sama buta tentang apa dan bagaimana cara mendapatkan pendidikan yang baik untuk saya. Ayah melepas saya begitu saja, dalam keadaan bingung, dan semuanya berjalan begitu sulitnya. Saya kehabisan uang, tidak memperoleh tempat sekolah, dan siapa yang dapat membantu? 

Waktu itu, saya menuliskan impian saya dalam setiap buku yang saya pelajari. Hanya itu yang saya bisa lakukan. Setelah ditipu lembaga bimbingan komputer, saya memutuskan untuk ikut bimbingan belajar untuk mengulang UMPTN saya yang telah gagal saya masuki. Di sana, saya menemukan orang-orang, yang seperti apapun telah membantu saya menemukan siapa diri saya. Saya mempelajari, bahwa orang-orang yang tulus pasti ada. Meskipun, terkadang, kita tidak pernah menyangka apa yang dipikirkan orang lain tentang kita. Saya terus berjalan, menyusuri siang dan malam, untuk mengubah nasib saya. Hingga, akhirnya Allah perkenankan harapan ayah saya. Pada akhirnya, saya menjadi dokter. 

Banyak transformasi yang terjadi, saya adalah generasi transisi, yang harus cepat beradaptasi, dari sesuatu yang lambat dan tertutup, menjadi cepat dan terbuka di era internet ini. Dan, sekali lagi, ayah saya begitu banyak memengaruhi jalan hidup saya, meski, sebenarnya, pada semester 3 saya di fakultas kedokteran, ayah meninggalkan saya selama-lamanya. Saya, terus berjalan, dalam sepinya perjuangan, terus berlari, tidak pernah berhenti hingga hari ini. Kini, saya telah menyelesaikan 3 gelar akademis tambahan; 2 master dan 1 gelar spesialis. Saya masih harus menambah setidaknya 3 gelar lagi, yaitu Ny., (K), dan PhD. Itu impian saya. 

Saya berpikir, dan berharap saya dapat meraih PhD di negara berbahasa Inggris. Semoga Allah berkenan, memberikan gelar-gelar itu pada saya. Saya selalu bermimpi, seiring waktu, Allah membukakan pintu-pintu rejeki bagi saya, agar saya dapat berbuat banyak untuk emak saya, keluarga lainnya, dan orang yang membutuhkan saya.

Untuk semua yang telah diberikan pada saya, secara khusus, saya tidak lagi menuliskan pada buku bacaan saya seperti masa 20 tahun silam. Namun, refleksi ini saya tuliskan di blog, dan bersedia disinggahi oleh orang lain, atau kolega atau calon boss saya, untuk sekedar mengetahui sedikit tentang saya. Seperti apapun, apa yang saya tulis adalah sebagian kecil dari apa yang ingin saya raih. Saya, selalu bermohon, semoga Tuhan berkenan menitipkan dunia ini pada saya, dan semoga saat itu, hati saya tidak ikut menggenggamnya. Amin.

Saya sadar, bahwa jatuh bangun saya, semua telah diijinkanNya, dan saya berjuang agar saya ridho dan, saya mengingat, secara khusus saya belum pernah mengucapkan terima kasih kepada Tuhan yang telah begitu baik dan ajaib membawa saya, dari seseorang yang sangat susah, menjadi orang yang cukup. Hari ini, ijinkan saya mengucapkan terima kasih atas semuanya. Terima kasih, Allah. Lily Kasim